I have known my boss for over 2 years but just 6 months ago, I started working for him. I told him one of the conditions for me to accept the position was that it was to be strictly professional. He said he’d agree. Mind you, we were together briefly when we first met, but I ended the contact almost after a month or so because of a multitude of obvious reasons (I.e., fundamentally and morally wrong; it was affecting my sobriety). Not to mention, he’s very married and I was in a toxic relationship. Well since I took the position 6 months ago, our affair has started back up again. It goes against every grain of my moral fiber and I’ve tried to end it on many occasions but he does not like the word no and can be very cunning with his I need you, I love you, my wife and I are like brother and sister more than husband and wife… I end up caving but that problem/issue stems much deeper in me than ill mention here.
Having an affair was one of my “I never” and here I am not being able to get out! He throws money and nice things, maybe even job privileges my way, but after a couple of days, the stuff loses it’s “high” and perspective sets in. Well, now all my eggs financially are in his basket and I think my only way to end it is to find another job and break all contact. I’m smart enough to never want him to leave his wife or have that expectation…I’d never want to hurt another woman that way because I’ve had that done to me…crazy painful and I don’t want the karma! He’s the other twist on this story, his son, who is the VP of the company caught us texting each other at the holiday party and has questioned his dad about. I cringe on the inside that he saw them and I cringe that my integrity is in question now. His dad came up with a story to satisfy the son’s curiosity but he’ll always look at me with contempt prior to investigation. Ironically during all this, I’m really trying to learn to love myself better and stop with negative behaviors….this one is obviously not a positive influence. If I resign, there goes my pay, but my job offer promised 3-5 yrs employment…any thoughts on job angle and ending it??? Thanks for listening!