I don’t know what hurt me the most. The fact i thought I knew him and thought he wasn’t like that, the fact he KNOWS I don’t like it and I’ve told him it would really hurt me or the fact he told me not to come round and pick him up and instead he’d wait for the car and meet me at mine in an hour (well now I know why he didn’t want me to turn up!)
Walking in on him last week really shocked me. His face, when he slammed his laptop down and ran to the door and almost stopped me from coming in, was weird!! And I am SUCH a fool! Immediately I thought porn but even though he had no pants on I still reminded myself not to assume as ironically it’s our 1 year anniversary next week n I thought he may be booking something. Ha!! Anyway, I asked him if it was good (i was actually only joking as I didn’t see the toilet roll until after id asked it) n he said no not really n I nearly broke down in tears. Anyhow long story short I stormed out n drove home with my phone in my bag assuming he’d be ringing or texting asking why I left but NOTHING. It took me 20-25minutes to get home n then when he did txt he had a go at me!!!
So when I phoned him (really upset and shouting) he initially said he did it for me. Later when he admitted he didn’t know why he did it I then got him to admit that actually, he was lying about “doing it for me”.
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He claims he can’t remember me telling him how much it would hurt me and says its the first time he’s ever done it. However, I’m finding it hard to believe that its such a coincidence that the first time he does it since being with me is the time I walk in on him doing it.
I don’t know what to do. It’s our anniversary on Friday n I’ve only just started being able to put my arms around him n let him get close in bed and kissing and this happened last Wednesday! We have good sex n he does very nice things for me but the fact he obviously doesn’t listen to me or care about my feelings means I’m struggling to get over it. How can I trust he won’t do it again?? Please help!
