Long story short. My boyfriend hasn’t really treated great me at the start of the relationship; he lied to me about seeing his ex. Nothing happened but I’m just insecure with them being friends and worried he would fall back in love with her, even though he assured me he loves ME and he’s choosing to me with ME.
I love him so much as I have never loved anyone in my life before. At least, I think I do. How can you be sure? Isn’t that kind of love something that grows?
I’m just not sure I can give everything to him now because I am so scared that my fears will come true. That I have wasted my time being in a relationship and he will lie to me again when the going gets tough and fall back in love with someone else. What if he isn’t the perfect match for me and there’s someone who can make me happier.
What if he’s wasting his life with me because I make him happy now, but I might not make him happier later on? What if he wastes his life being with me and resents me for it?
I want to trust him and I don’t want to not be with him because I know I’ll regret it. He makes me smile so much and he made mistakes at the start of our relationship that has made me question our future. If we could ever have one.
I’m only 18 but it feels like I’ve found the one. Is it too young to be with the one? He never holds me back from living my life. If anything he pushes me to do more. Just please, someone tell me… Is it worth it?