Don't know where to really start. I feel stuck like I'm not moving forward I have a 1 year old and a 9 year old that has adhd and odd. My oldest has a defiant disorder where she don't likes to listen to authority. This wears and tears on my relationship with my fiance for 7 years.
I don't know what to do at this point I have had a cps case on me for almost a year because my oldest started out as being jealous of the baby. My life has been turned upside down to have to deal with this on a daily basis and the child not having no care in the world. It's so bad my family is in denial blames me for her reactions and why she acts the way she do.
So, now I don't know by next month if I will have my kids because my oldest child don't won't to do right. I'm always sad depressed crying. But feel like I'm not getting anywhere. I can't keep a job because my child likes being bad getting in trouble. I've lost many many jobs behind this and I don't know what to do. I want to get her professional help outside the home because I feel like i can't do it.
I constantly say the same thing over and over again. I just feel like I don't have no drive I don't won't to lose both my children because one wants to act up and be bad all the time. I never seen a child who can be so manipulative and make people believe her lies and make me seem like I'm the bad parent as if I'm not giving my all to help her.
I put her on medication she goes to therapy but nothing is working I want to give up but i don't because that's my child but what about my other child...Can someone shed some insight because I've been dealing with this for a very long time where I've gotten so stressed and depressed it has put me in the hospital.