My Ex and I
I had dated this one guy back when I was 19-20 years old. Lets call him John. We had a short relationship. But it was a good short relationship. Never faught once. Everything in the bedroom was great. His family loved me. Still does. We broke up because my mother didnt apporve at the time. I am now 26 years old. We have kept in contact all these years. He knows how strongly I feel about him.
A little over a month ago we decided to hang out. He had told me at that time that when I had my life back on track (i was between jobs) he would like to date me again. I told him I'd like that. So we saw eachother again the next weekend. Then after that I barely heard from him for 4 weeks. So I suspected that he had started seeing someone. I flat out asked him. He said yes. He was. He said he planned on waiting for me, but he ran into this girl he had tlked to on a dating website on and off for the past year. He said they never met, but happened to run into eachother at his baseball thing.
He apologized left and right, he said he meant every word when he told me he would like to date me again. But that him and this girl have so much in common.
At this point I told him I was done wating for him. I blocked him everywhere. Except my email so of course I had gotten an email from him that he was so sorry and that he doesn't want to lose me.
I told him I was no ones 2nd choice or fall back girl. He then responded this---
"And no matter what I've done or how I've made you feel..
YOU WERE NEVER MY "BACKUP" GIRL!
You've always been that toy up on the top shelf that I'm not supposed to have, can't reach, and can't have.. which always made me so scared to try and climb for."---
What is that supposed to mean? I mean.. I love this man. When I look at him I just know that he is the person I want to grow old with. What am I supposed to do? Im scared to think of how much longer I am supposed to wait for him. I am a very patient person. I have waited for 6 years now. But I am slowly getting tired of waiting. But then again I do not want to be with anyone else.