Long Distance Relationship, Not sure what to do or think =/
Hello all..Im currently in a relationship with my girl friend who is 18 (same age as me).
She lives approximately 100 miles away from me normally but has recently gone to a Summer School to do a University access course, which is 550 miles away.
We are close, and trust each other. We argue but not often, however, recently I feel as though me & her are drifting apart. Im due to see her again in 13 days (from date of this post). We dont often see each other due to long distance & my lack of income (can't get work, trust me i've tried).
She has paid for us to spend the weekend in an apartment, she also paid for train tickets for me to get there.
We have to use MSN/Skype to communicate, she doesn't call often because of her "friend" (female) who is bisexual & has an interest in her wants her to call her all the time..however this friend hates me (i'll give me details on this if necessary).
Since moving to the University Halls she has made new friends (shes shy & used to be a recluse). She had a go at me last night (night before this post) for me wanting to talk to her more, and that I seemed to not want her to have a life. I do, I really do, however, she barely talks to me compared to when she was living back home, she snaps at me more & says she feels bad about it. She makes me feel like everything is my fault (then says its not trying to reassure me), and then regardless of everything still thinks i'll love her no matter what.
Im faithful to her & love her immensely, but I feel a rift inbetween us and she refuses to address it (I dont know why). She gets angry at me for feeling down or upset (i assume because it annoys her) & when she tries cheering me up it seems like a half hearted effort.
I have lots of things stressing me out (I'll give more detail if necessary). My old Secondary School friends (I live in England) dont care or try contacting me anymore...friends I made during college have their own agenda & I never get contacted or replies from them either. She is my only real friend, she knows this.I feel like a burden to her because of this *sigh*.
Im her first real boyfriend & visa versa. I cant talk to my mum or dad and have no friends to talk to about this...please help..someone..anyone :(
She doesn't reply to anything I say, I give her space and everything too. But she is the person that understands me best, yet even she doesn't understand how I feel (no matter how I explain it) about our long distance relationship. I wish I could live closer to her (my town is a dive & has little opportunity).
I feel like some pathetic loser with no life..I feel down nearly all the time & try & spend time on my own away from my family (they stress me out) to cope.. I cry often & feel weak & just..i dont know *sigh*
I feel like giving up, like I have nothing to live for..
I hope someone can help me..I just feel so alone..