right i will start out by saying i have my faults, i am very jealous and insecure! i no i am and i try and stop it but i cant!
i have been with my boyfriend just over a year he is all i want i love him so much.
when we started out he wasnt talking to a friend who is a girl, he had really liked her but she used this to her advantage and basically had him running around after her. when he wised up to it he stopped talking to her, he deleted her number, and blocked her on the internet.
a few months ago she started mgs him and trying to be friends again which he didnt respond to and i was glad, i had told him that coz i new how he had liked her i wasnt comforable with her and him txtin and mgs.
she then sent him a mgs on facebook and convinced him to add her and i was ok with this at first but she started txtin him mgs which seem like to me that was trying to find out if he still like him so i asked him not to message her anymore and he didnt, well as far as i new he didnt.
i then deleted her from his facebook which now seems like a silly thing to do but he had told me i could, and i couldnt stand the idea that she might be after him. i must stress that i trust my boyfriend 100% but there is this little voice nagging away at me.
she then added me on facebook to have ago at me for keep deleting her which i only did once. so i sent a message back saying i didnt do anything that he didnt tell me i could, and asked what made her think it was me that did!!
when my boyfriend got home from work i asked him about it and he said that he had told her that i had done it!! needless to say i felt so stupid! it turned out that he had lied to my face, tellingme he has txt a guy friend of his when it was really her. i new something was up as we had always been very open if my phone went off he would readit and if his did i would but he got very defencive over it. he would still read mine though and now i no why.
after this we had a chat and decided that i would back off and he could be friends with her as i had seen that i had been unresonible, but just asked if he could tall me if he got any txts from her or if he txt her. he promised he would!
about 3 months has passed and he never told that she had txt him so i assumed that it was over and done with. i had wanted so many times to ask if he had heard from her but i didnt want to upset things as everything was going so well! as i said we have a very open realtionship and yesterday i was bored and so i went on his facebook to have a noise at what his friends were up and found a message between him and a mate of his saying that the 3 of them where planning to meet! now my boyfriend had told me he was with this mate but forgot to mention her being there!!! he has now admitted that he has been txtin her as well!
i can understand why he ididnt tell me and has said sorry but i feel like they are laughing at me behind my back! ihe insists that its only been a few messages but he phone bill says differntly!! i have differculty getting reply whenever i txt him on his day off and he says its coz he is busy but there is pages of messages to her!
thing is i no there is nothing going but there is this thought in my head telling me otherwise! i txt him this morning asking him to tell me how much he has been txt her and that i need to no. he didnt reply so i sent another one asking if we can start a fresh, have a grown up conversation were neither of use get stressed or upstress but where i can ask questions and get the answers i need to make a move on.
he then txt me sayin i keep pushing and pushing, and that we will have a grown up conversation when he gets in! i think that means he is gonna end it with me, which i really dont want but then i dont think i can live with no knowing what has been goign on behind my back. i cant seem to just for get. i shouldnt have gone on at him today tho as last night we had a chat and he agreed that he wouldnt meet up with her anymore but i said he has got to be nasy he can still txt her just tell me when he does! but looking at the amount he has been txtin her i dont no if i can just ignor it.
i no he was hiding it coz he nos how i would have reacted but there is a part of me wondering if there is more too it!