I dont feel loved by my boyfriend
I have been with my boyfriend for four years, from quite a young age and we have always been up and down but this time its really bad. i am such an insecure person about everything and worry about everything. it all started from me not trusting him from stuff in the past and i know he wouldnt cheat but i have a niggling feeling inside that will never go away. he knows exactly how i feel because i tell him all the time as thats the way i have been bought up, but he seems to not want to know, and he does the opposite to what im saying i need. he has changed so much and i miss who he was before. I am not strong enough to end it with him, but i just dont feel loved and constantly crying and needing a cuddle. the last time i felt this way i strayed ... which didnt help things but im just scared im going to again, because i hate myself for it, but i just need the love and affection from him. he always expects me to wait around for him so sort it, it can never be done my way. pleeeease how can i stop being so insecure?