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Work, Finding Time for Each Other, Getting on Better with my Partner

i was with my boyfriend for 2 years, we were brilliant together we were not just lovers but best friends as well, i had a miscarriage early on in the relationship and i 'thought' i got over it until the last few months of our relationship :( we were not getting on at all and i was getting at him a lot. during them months thought i lost my cousin to cancer which she battled for 3 and a half years, also my uncle was really bad when he was going through chemo because he has a tumor and to top it off quite a lot of people i know were giving birth and with everything going on i could not cope and all that was running through my head was that i was useless as a woman and i was blaming myself for a lot of things, i have just recently found out though that i may have bipolar which will explain a lot of my depressive moods and high sessions which i have a lot. at the time though my boyfriend was working days a week and even when i saw him on a night he was to tired to do anything. we have not been together for nearly 2 and a half months :'( when i told him what was going on he said he didn't love me as much as he did and he never would again :'( but when i talked to him a few weeks ago (nearly a month ago) he said he loved me still but he couldn't go back :'( so i told him to tell me he didn't love me anymore and he did :'( i know i should not have kept them things from him but at that time i didn't know what was wrong myself and it was the only thing out of the 2 years we were together... what should i do because there is something inside of me just telling me to wait and to not give up :'( (i thought through everything and done everything to occupy my mind but the feeling never fades) i did the worst thing possible n call him n text him n say sorry all the time which i feel has just pushed him away:'( i do really love him and he still is my world no matter how much im trying to move on... what do i do because i really want t show him im sorting myself out and that i do still really love him, with all my heart :'(