Help me..... Is this all my fault.......
I dont know...... whats going on in my life. I want to share these thoughts because i feel really lonely and i dont have anyone to share my thoughts. I cant even share with my boyfriend because he doesn't care he think that relationship will continue the same way as it was from the beginning to the end but he never realizes that our relationship totally depends on my adjustment. If i being a girl who doesn't attempt to help in our relationship then i dont know this would have been ended a long back... I always take the blame.... i am a loser in this relationship always..... because i dont want to have a fight but everything has to be ended with a fight were i start a fight with all my longings kept inside me for a long time..... and he doesn't even care which is the most hurting feeling which i can't bare...... this is a 5yr relationship which was ended my him saying i want to end this relationship and i was totally freaked which i did not expect from him.... and i committed a suicide and he said me i didnt think u will give ur life for me..... ya.... i am an idiot to give life for some one who doesnt even think before to say that he wanted to end all the relationship between us...... i totally freaked and iam still a fool who believes that sometime we will get married and end the life together......but i know that is not going to happen ..... but still i love him the most..... i dont want this to end......... he speaks to me well., Now he doesnt have time to spare..... he talks daily like 20 min..... and says good night or i will call u later...... he knows well if he doesnt call i will msg him so to be in a safer side he just calls and i really have nothing spl to talk to him .he will speak something i wil hear and he will say iam feling tried so bye.......... I almost begged him that i like to see him..... he said after a long time.... ok.... we will see...... but i know we dont have the opportunity to see......the think is i almost asks him everything (say me i love you,,,,,,, give me kiss in phone........ and at last i asked him talk to something sexy) which i almost regretted after asking...... i cried and i felt pathethic and i said him to hang up the phone..........
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Dear Anonymous,
I really feel for you in your distress. It's so hard when the one you love most in the world doesn't seem to care for you in the way you want them to. It sounds as though you could do with someone to talk to - have you thought about counselling? It's the sort of situation which would be perfect . You want to talk about your feelings for your bf and how he behaves, but there's noone around with whom you can do this - a counsellor would be able to help you through this, and with them you could start to see a way forward.
I'm not sure what country you're living in, but if it's the UK, then you could try Relate at www.relate.org.uk or Marriage Care at www.marriagecare.org.uk
I hope it works out for you. Best wishes, Charlie
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