does my ex want me back or not?
This is so hard for me. I thought i was alot stronger than this. turns out im quite fragile.a harsh reality to face.
me and my ex have alot of history and a child together.
He is currently with someone else, but lately we have become close friends.
The other night i was on a night out with friends and we bumped into eachother.
We were both in a state of nostalgia , talking about the past.
He brought up alot of things, such as, how he thought i was the "one" and i broke his heart by leaving him.
In reality it was him that broke my heart which is why i left, but he maintains how hurt he was and dissapointed in himself for the reasons why i left. He regrets it.
He said he misses the way we were, and missed the way we made love.
His current partner and him arnt getting on very well, she was kind of a rebound for him, but he is not over me at all.
He has said he knows where he should be, with me and our child, and hates the fact he isnt.
He didnt want to leave me that night. We were, for the first time in months, so engaged , so enriched in our conversations and nostalga.
He did leave eventually, to go back his current gf, even though he only left out of respect for her, i know he didnt want to leave.
I was a little emotional and intoxicated and sent him a messaged, asking if hed leave, and come home to us.
I kept it as simple as that. I dont know yet if i did the right thing there, risking my heart for him yet again, putting my faith in him yet again. this time would have to be different.
I dont even know what he thinks to this as iv not herd anything since. no reply.
Maybe hes mulling things over, i dont know.
What do you think hes thinking, or doing?
considering what was said between us. i just dont know. im very confused.hate this feeling of the unknown.