Ok so I have been married to my husband for just over 2 years, we have been together since we were 19 (6 years) He's a really fantastic sweet loving generous & trustworthy guy who loves me, the only problem is he's not very affectionate with me I'm a cuddly person & admittedly I love attention & feeling 'wanted'. We have a good sex life & this is pretty much the only time I get affection. He never wants to kiss or cuddle me :(
So in november (2011) I went on a night out with my 2 best friends & they introduced me to their male friend let's call him A. I got very drunk & he ended up coming home with us that night, we shared a bed & as it was winter I was very cold n was shivering, he put his arms around me n held me all night. Nothing else happened & at this point I had no intention of cheating, I didn't know the guy, but I enjoyed the cuddle, made friends with him on facebook & left it at that. I put it behind me & even told my husband we had shared a bed but nothing happened, he wasn't too bothered by this. Christmas came & went & I had no further contact with this guy although after another night out I admitted to my best friends I had a little crush on him...
So, this year I have slowly got deeper n deeper with A. Every night out I would share a bed with him n each time we would take things a little further, but mostly I just loved how he wanted to kiss & hold me ALL night n tell me I'm beautiful. We started messaging every day as well as texting. We started to have feelings for each other. Until finally we slept together last weekend! I felt awful & so guilty but we carried on talking none the less.
My two best friends don't know we slept together, we are keeping it a secret but they know everything else, and are getting sick of hearing about it as it is ALL I talk about! My life literally revolves round him :( I am obsessed!
So last night me n A shared a bed again, we didn't have sex but other things happened. This morning we agreed that this has to stop so we deleted each others numbers & agreed to sever all ties.
I know its the right thing to do & I do love my husband & want to stay with him & I need to forget this guy. I told my friends its all over & they are happy.
Just wondering if anyone has any insights or advice for me, I need to forget this guy, move on & treat my husband better!