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A brief encounter
After a few short encounters with a workman completing tasks at home, I find I cannot get him out of my mind. I am married with kids and am not with a radar out for such things. Very thrown by this. Life is fairly uneventful, I work p/t so not housebound but I am at times lonely. My husband and I are quite detached from each other, more companions than soul mates, not a lot in common, little conversation. So the workman with his friendly attentive interest, lingering looks and stopping tasks to directly focus conversation with me at length was flattering. I really enjoyed the short times together and he seemed to be in no hurry to go to his next appt, or leave for home. Thoughts of him fill my mind, not clearly mapped out ones, I don't know where this can go. He is married too and mentioned her. He will of course know I am married and there are children. Is this just part of the friendly way of workmen to innocently flirt? Am I making more of something here because this chap has shown me attention that I am perhaps lacking? I am not someone to mess about, never have done, but I am filled with thoughts of him. I would say that I am perceptive and felt some connection and was sure he was stealing many glances at me more than he should, and occasionally was pink with embarrassment (showing he was a bit self conscious in my presence). More work is scheduled in the coming weeks and I am worried about my thoughts running away with themselves.
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I think your post tells a story of unmet need.
The rest of the tale remains unwritten, and depends on what you make of this man's attention, and how you decide to handle it.
He could be seen as a 'mirror' for you unmet needs, or maybe he could become the opportunity for more.
Chances are that any involvement will be short-lived, but then roller coaster-rides usually are.
Doing something that is spontaneous and out of character can be exciting and temporarily liberating from the hum-drum of daily life: it can make you feel fully alive again.
The general rule pertaining to mood is that: what goes up must come down at some point, so a 'high' is often followed by a 'low'. But conversely, if you've had a lot of lows lately, then the thought of a high can seem very tempting.
There will probably be a price to pay, but will it be worth it? Only you will be able to answer that one.
If it amounts to a few short-lived encounters, will you feel guilty afterwards? Will you need to tell your husband in an attempt to relieve your guilt? How much do you think it will hurt him if he finds out? Could you perhaps square any hurt he feels with the thought that he should have paid you more attention, and "then it would never have happened"? What do you think the kids will make of it if they find out? How will you feel if they do get to know? If it turns your life upside down, will that be better than the usual flat routines and the current sense of loneliness that you have? So many questions, and so many possibilities.
This man has reminded you that you are an attractive and desirable woman, now it's up to you to decide how to thank him for reminding you of that fact.
Sky