Before anyone answers, know I’m not looking to be judged. In a nutshell, I want to be over this. The problem is, I have been sincerely in love with my husband’s brother for years. Every year it gets stronger. My husband and I started dating when we were 17 and his brother was only in 6 grade. We got married at 19- about 8 years ago. Around 6 years ago, I developed a personal relationship with my brother in law that was totally healthy and since then have always had a soft spot. I really can’t remember when it started, at least 4 years ago, I began to fall in love with him. I know its wrong. I don’t need to be told that. It’s gotten to the point that when I’m around him I get depressed. I tried telling myself it’s sick because he is basically my little brother but that doesn’t work. I won’t go on about what it is I love about him as to not justify my feelings. I tried severing any ties or chance of seeing- hearing about him but their family is close and it isn’t really possible without it seeming suspicious. My six-year-old son is extremely close to him and talks about him constantly. I can’t get away from it. I go to bed thinking about him and wake up thinking about him. My marriage is a good one.
We got married too young and are very different people. Regardless, my husband and I love each other very much and are best friends. We have moved passed the gushy part on our relationship but are mature adults. I’m a black and white person and feel like there is no situation that would ever make being with my brother in law OK. But I can honestly say I have never loved anyone the way I love him, and its love that has grown over the years. How do I get over him? What should I do? I know these feelings are not healthy for me my family or my husband’s.
